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How Could I Ever Compare To That?

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Upon looking her up,
via your Facebook page.
I see her pictures,
and so I think to myself,
"How could I ever compare to that?"

She is beauty walking on two legs.
She is the thing you keep asking me to be,
the thing I keep refusing to be.
She is what I am not,
and so I think to myself,
"How could I ever compare to that?"

I hear you talk about him,
and him, and him, and him,
the list ends and begins with "he,"
and there is never a "she" on the list.
And so I think to myself
"How could I ever compare to that?"

I had the wrong equipment between my legs.
Your love for me drifted away
while you realised that where it actually lay
was in everything I did not have;
flat chests, no curves,
masculine, not feminine.
And I so I think to myself
"How could I ever compare to that?"

Some days, every second you spend talking to me
is about her.
How you miss her when she's gone,
even for five minutes.
How sometimes you can't breathe without her,
how you dream of spending your life with her.
I'm happy, so happy for you,
even though sometimes my congratulations are a little forced,
and I'm sorry for that, it's really not your fault,
it's mine.
I should really stop doing that,
because she is everything you ever wanted.
And so I think to myself
"How could I ever compare to that?"

I can't change what my body has,
and that keeps me away.
As for the others, you have found people
that are not me
that I could never be.
They are everything I am not,
and that makes them everything you want.
And I'm happy for you, so happy.
I want nothing but for you to be happy,
even if I'm really not.
And so I think to myself,
"How could I ever compare to that?"

The answer is
that I can't
and I will never be able to.
If this confuses you, it's about 4 different people. Basically I'm lonely and I'm falling off a bandwagon, slipping, backsliding, whatever. (not into drugs or anything if some of you just got confused, just a thing I was doing really good at that I'm not doing so good at anymore). That, mixed with the fact that I am really, insanely lonely makes for depressing poetry. If you read this and you know you're in it, like, you recognise yourself, I apologise for sticking you in a poem. It just kind of happened and I wouldn't submit this if it weren't for the fact that I kind of like it, so if you could continue talking to me after reading this that would be great, I'd hate to lose someone please and thank you.
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Casimera224's avatar
Awwwww my little doll..its beautiful :3